First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOHN, MICHAEL AND JILL! I love you guys, and can't wait to see you this weekend- it's been
way too long! I hope you all have a great day.
Now for my recent realizations...
Work isn't everything. Family and friends are everything. Of course I've known this. I've always known this, but somehow I haven't. At least I haven't been living as though I've known this. Let me explain...
I just worked from 4 am until 3:45 pm. I'm tired. I'm grumpy. I came straight home from work, letting the kids stay at day care hoping that I might be able to catch a small nap before the 6:00 pm mandatory pick-up time. Instead, I find myself frustrated with things, my mind still back at work thinking about what I didn't get done today, what I need to do first when I get there at 4 am (or should I go in a little bit earlier so I can get a couple more things on my to-do list checked off?), or should I go do a load of laundry, or vacuum again because Ruthie is shedding like crazy, and oh- the kitchen is a mess again...the dishwasher needs emptied and re-filled...Urg! I'm tired.
And Brian. He gets up, tries to catch a shower before Isaac and Amelia wake up, then if they aren't up already, gets Isaac up, to the potty, dressed, breakfast. Gets the bottles ready. Brushes Isaac's and his own teeth. Wakes up Amelia and dresses her. Takes them to daycare and lets them feed her. Goes to work, tries to be first in (he'll get the first opportunity to try to sell to walk-ins), they open at 9 am. They close at 7 pm. It is
rare for him to get home before 8 pm. By this time, I have fed the kids, possibly bathed them, and have done whatever I can to get them ready for bed including picking out clothes for the next day. When possible, I do whatever cleaning/ laundry, etc. that I can get done or feel like getting done. We start trying to get the kids in bed. I don't end up in bed until 9 pm having spent no time with Brian, and very little with the kids.
Start over the next day with my alarm going off at 2:15 am.
And weekends. Brian works every Saturday but 1 each month. Because daycare doesn't exitst on Saturdays, I spend time with the kids and go in on Sundays. Occasionally on a weekend evening we get to visit with some of our friends or family- probably once per month.
Does it sound like I
know family is everything? Not at all. I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. I don't want to continue to be put in a situation where I am regularly choosing work and sleep over my husband and children. Enough belly-aching. Change is in the air. It is time. People work too much and don't do enough with the people they love and that love them. That is what is wrong with this country. I am ready to down-grade. Down-grade the life style, make some sacrifices. Smaller house with smaller mortgage and taxes, less cable, less stuff, less bills, less work.
More husband, more kids, more brothers and sisters and moms and dads and grandma and grandpa and friends and friends and friends! It's time for us to change!